Wednesday, August 8, 2012

Summer Camp, Take 1



Well the kids are at summer camp this week. Not at the time THANKGOODNESS. It’s an intro week that’s 3 days, 2 nights so it’s not too long but gives the kiddos a chance to see what it’s all about.  I love my kids to PIECES but joke about getting them outof the house for the week.  Let me tell you the first night of Meredith’s absence WAS FELT. I was nervous and sad and excited and restless. I didn’t sleep. If I got 2 hours I was doing good. The next day I was shot. I was so tired I couldn’t even feel the anxietyalthough her lack of presence was not without notice. 

I’ve been accused of not living in the moment..worrying and borrowing trouble from the future. Well this situation was not without its share of that too!! As is custom for Karen I found myself sympathizing with parents who love their kids out to college,marry them off, heaven forbid lose them from this world.

Yeah I warned you..true to Karen. 

How do parents cope! I have Jackson leaving tomorrow for his ½ week at camp and wonder if I have the fortitude to do this all over again.  The worry, the wonder.  I can’t wait to get little girl back in my arms and my line of vision. To see her and knowthat everything went okay.  Once again my kids teach me. 

More to come on my journey of weird self-discovery and here are some pictures.  Pray for me!?  I need strength and calm and peace. I need to let go and not control. I need to allow things to happen as they will and relinquish control.  Thank you!

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